Lost in my mind

Lost in my mind
Needs to live but also needs to feel alive....

Friday, November 30, 2007

JK


Ah sorry about the really long post previously, that was the stuff i wanted if i could get them with out PAYING for them.

As i sat around my room i realized that what i really want is funny


BOOKS REALLY GOOD BOOKS
and Graphic Novels
NOT manga (well maby some if they have really good stories or art)
actual graphic novels

I miss reading T.T they also help my creativity
books of different styles and really good plots...

*sigh*

I miss reading good stories

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

All I want after Christmas

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0. Cyber stuff like so...

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1.somthing out of this guys store.
http://stores.ebay.com/eclothingline
2 A Pendulum like so...

3. Gothic Lolitas like so...




4. Those cutom dolls, i gotta figure out what there called and where to buy them >.< ...heres one version..

5. Japanese clothes (kinda know what my friend is getting me ^-^) like so...




6. This Tarot Deck Tarocco di Luce


Some other stuff of my list i'm tol lazy to upload like cds and such

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Distance

I have no idea what wrong with me, i can think up great stories or ideas but i can't draw or write them out. I think something is seriously wrong with me, I'm becoming more paranoid than usual (usual is during my monthly). People say I'm depressed but i don't really think so, (to me depression was the three times i tried to kill my self don't worry this happened in my 9th grade year), or when i think about killing my self.

I've been sick for over a month now, Randomly my voice will sound funny me left arm hurts, randomly i'll get weird pains in my stomach. Reading out loud has become strange to me and i sometimes have dyslexia while speaking (i'll switch stuff around, ex 'it's late getting') I'm stressed out can't get my face out of the computer and have trouble sleeping.
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I have almost no friends at school, and the friends i do have never have the time or something comes up. I practically have no one to talk i have real friends and i hardly ever see them. Man oh man what's wrong with me. It's my fucking senior year and I'm going to mess it up because i can't get my self together