JK

Ah sorry about the really long post previously, that was the stuff i wanted if i could get them with out PAYING for them.

As i sat around my room i realized that what i really want is funny


BOOKS REALLY GOOD BOOKS
and Graphic Novels
NOT manga (well maby some if they have really good stories or art)
actual graphic novels

I miss reading T.T they also help my creativity
books of different styles and really good plots...

*sigh*

I miss reading good stories

All I want after Christmas

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0. Cyber stuff like so...

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1.somthing out of this guys store.
http://stores.ebay.com/eclothingline
2 A Pendulum like so...

3. Gothic Lolitas like so...




4. Those cutom dolls, i gotta figure out what there called and where to buy them >.< ...heres one version..

5. Japanese clothes (kinda know what my friend is getting me ^-^) like so...




6. This Tarot Deck Tarocco di Luce

Some other stuff of my list i'm tol lazy to upload like cds and such

Distance

I have no idea what wrong with me, i can think up great stories or ideas but i can't draw or write them out. I think something is seriously wrong with me, I'm becoming more paranoid than usual (usual is during my monthly). People say I'm depressed but i don't really think so, (to me depression was the three times i tried to kill my self don't worry this happened in my 9th grade year), or when i think about killing my self.

I've been sick for over a month now, Randomly my voice will sound funny me left arm hurts, randomly i'll get weird pains in my stomach. Reading out loud has become strange to me and i sometimes have dyslexia while speaking (i'll switch stuff around, ex 'it's late getting') I'm stressed out can't get my face out of the computer and have trouble sleeping.
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I have almost no friends at school, and the friends i do have never have the time or something comes up. I practically have no one to talk i have real friends and i hardly ever see them. Man oh man what's wrong with me. It's my fucking senior year and I'm going to mess it up because i can't get my self together