Christmas/ Birthday present

1. $3000 to pay for my car.

2. this doll http://souldoll.com/shop/step1.php?number=1504

3.  This wig   http://souldoll.com/shop/step1.php?number=1623

4.   This Shirt  http://dollmore.net/shop/step1.php?number=4505

5.  This outfit   http://dollmore.net/shop/step1.php?number=3342

6.  this shirt  http://dollmore.net/shop/step1.php?number=2674

7. An Xbox 360

8. Mirrors Edge for the Xbox 360

9. Money so i can buy some fabric and patterns so I can make some kick ass clothes.

lol Just wishfull thinking guys 

What...the hell.

Okay first off i had another dream, it consited of a dark place with neon colors and people where dancing. I think it had somthing to do with me going to the club last weekend. But the people in my dream where a lot cooler for some reason
(and the people at the club where cool) it was proboly because i knew them on a diffrent level. Eh, I don't know anyway this sipisous guy comes out of nowhere and hands people a pack a jewel pendents. I felt that they had some type of power depending on the type of person you where. Some one next to me got a dark green pack. I tried to stay asleep till i recived mine but i was too awake >.<

Well i'm still sick...this makes week no3
Any way at school today I was pretty much left on my own Eddie a friend in my Chinese class had to work so I spent an hour and a half studying. Then Random Gamer Dude set me a text message telling me that Battle of the Rock Bands had started. I was getting ready for my next class so I said that I couldn't go. After class I went down to see what was left of the Battle. And I heard some really bad singing. Any way Gabe left but not before kicking my folder away from me. I didn't bother to do get it. Then Random Gamer Dude came tried talking to me and then left but not before kicking my folder halfway across the room. I don't get it but....what ever, I got a paper due and a Math test tomorrow can't be worried about dumb people.


Oh yea I got out of my art block. when I get a chance I will upload them onto Deviantart.

First Day of College

Okay first i got to school 2 hours early so i walked around campus for a bit and then sat in fron of my classroom till it was time to go in. Sat next to a cute guy name Erick. The teacher was nice. tho near the end of the class i could feel my self nodding off. Finally class let out 2hours later. I had half an hour to do nothing so i walk around again peole kept asking me where things where. Finally i sat down in a sitting area in the building. Then when it was time to go tomy english class it turns out that my teacher wasnt there!! So i ziped off across the street to barns and noble and filled out an application and sat there andread xxxholic 4 2 hours then my friend Gabrial came to school andwanted to hand out so i wanderd around while waiting for her classs to endwe ate at a subway and she went back to return a book. I hung around in the fourm waiting for her and wrote down the names of some clubs there. then we went home. thats pretty much it my first day ^_^

More Dreams

1.

I'm in a arcade with a few friends of mine . A mermaid type creature that goes into her full mermaid form when she hits water and and older coupple. the man reminded me of a frog. The mermaid is infatuated with the man. And i'm always telling her to move on because he is married. Finnaly she says she'll get over him and I smilie and point out a guy who is asking me to play a game with him I told hime that my friend would love to play. the game consisted of him thowing things in the water and her having to retrive them under the time limit. Well she accepts the chanlange and quickly beats the game. I remember thinking she was really pretty in water. anyway. the guy tells her she can pick any prize she wants and she choses a gigantic stuffed frog. She lookes hopefully at the couple and As we walk away i remember thinking. she hasent learnd her lesson. so i tured around and ask the guy to give me some tickets. and the guy hands me a this huge roll. I smilie and hed over to the Redemm prize area O.o



2.

I was in my house and there where faries wandering around my house. I asked them what they wanted. They said they had no home and whould like to live in my house. I agreed, but after a while i thought they where strange so i told them of a house next to my neighbors that was abandoned and that they could have a ball there. Then out of now where i'm in my back yard that seemed to have turned itself into a forsest/mountain trail and as i was walking i saw my best friends the twins. We talked for a while be for they noticed a tiger and ran away. I stared at the tiger and it hissed at me. i didn't panic i just mealy walked away from it. then i saw my dad and he ran away as well for the tiger was back this time i fell and the tiger came extremly close to me, i was a bit nervous that time.

3I was invited to go to the movies where there where stranged people dressed up in latex suits and we did some silly stuff and ended up on the news lol

Dreaming~

I had a dream this morning It was unnaturally sunny and i saw my next door friends Brenden and Jo they when the younger version and there where some other kids with them sitting on a blanket like it was a picnic and Jo said"Hey you cut your hair!"

And i smiled an laughed "No i didn't!"

He kept insisting that i did but i smiled and went over to the fence

Then my mom woke me up....

Good times good times

I miss them i wish i was still in contact with them but the last time i saw them was when there grandfather died....on that note...my grandfater also died.. i made the obituary for the furnel

School is a bout to end and for that i'm happy for i'm going to go to School Craft

i'm also going to try to find a place to stay.any longer in that house and i will kill myself

I'm GRADUATING~~~~

Must pay for books and get better at drawing

....i'm currently trying to change my style.
Sigh....i'm glad but still empty about it...

PS. I went on a date...it was fun I saw Iron Man~


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Wondering why

Sometimes i wonder if i'm being toonice or a bittoomean. When ever i meet some one i want to be my friend I always tell them my faults. the bad things that i've done and other not so good things to say. And i let them decide if they want to be my friend. well. Skyi, a fried i trusted and truly care about. Decided that i because i am not as madly in love with him as he was with me. Doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore. Well...okay i thought to my self and i go about my business. I didn't talk to him unless he spoke to me and when ever he spoke to me it was nothing but "Hi. Did you sleep well last night?" and that be about it. But this Asshole decides that now i don't respect him. I never listen to him on the phone.

Well if ANYONE has ever talked to me on the phone, they know that phone conversations annoy the living hell out of me, like hell i'm gonna really listen to what your saying, much less remember. I'd much rather talk to you face to face. But sadly Skyi is a pussy when it comes to face to face convosation. The last time he came over to my house we didn't even have a decent conversation.

So i try to get him to talk to me at school. but obviously (and i'm seriously not mad) he dosn't feel like talking me me, he'd rather go talk about halo.because it relives stress.

My real friends are genually surprised that i've been so nice to him and are wondering when i'll accept a loss cause and leave it alone. Or make him cry. what ever comes first they said.

The thing is i've Never stuck up for some one like i did him. I've always told him to get a hold of him self and to forget what other people think. but i think he only humored me. Now he tells me that i wasted 3 years of his life...
well as i recall i don't remember forcing you to talk to me, to call me back, to come over, to buy me things.

I may not know myself but i know what i stand for and what i believe in when it comes to friends. I trusted him, i stuck up for him but all he want to remember is a cd i broke, all the things he gave me and a guitar i offered him to barrow.

My heart says to cry, but it also says it's not worth it.

Skyi since you do know care about what i've tried to do for you. I'll leave you alone and give you back everything that i still have that was givin from you to me. Go sell it so you can get your money back. I'm tired and stressed out and i really don't have time for this. what i really needed was some one i could talk too. I'm scared for my future but know one know how much its really affecting me. I don't notice things around me anymore. Thoughts of living in eternal nothingness are extremely appealing right now. I'm tired of trying to adjust myself. You won't even read a book i gave you.

I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH SOME ONE THAT LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM
I NEED FRIENDS THAT CAN TOLERATE ME
I NEED SOME ONE TO CUDDLE WITH WHEN I'M SAD
LOVE SCARES ME do you want to know why? It's becasue every one that every told me I love you acted as if they where obsessed with me, all i've ever wanted was to fall in love with some one..and i'm not sorry that the person wan't you, or the boy a block away or they guy i met at a bar or at the park,or on the bus

...i need more nosie to drown out this emptiness i feel while i am among the living

I'm still making your cake Skyi, wether or not you eat it is up to you

Ouchies

I look tired, wouldn't you after getting all worked up for nothing and then repeating the process with a video-game?

I actually didn't hurt that bad.
My parents say it's disgusting tho....i would care, but their programed to say that.
What do ya think!!!




It's my birthday cake!!! My dad thought it would be funny to buy me a pink cake....so i thought it would be funny to write "happy birthday emilie" in korean