So I've decided....

To join the NAVY.

....I went to a requiter and took a pre-test and such. Scored 44 on my pre-test. The requiter told me to just go and take the test but I feel I at least need to study up on my math.....I did not understand most of it lol... It was pretty basic too. I'm hoping that with my interest in foreign language I can get a chance to take the DLAB, If I score high enough (in the right areas) on my ASVAB...

YEP...I'm gonna be a seamen...sealady...WAVE?

PS the requiter totally got me a milkshake...

what do I do now?

Things were going okay for a while.....

and then last week was possibly the worst week of my life nothing went right. Plans with my friends fell through. all of them....I've been having ridiculously good dream, but a nagging feeling in the back of my brain came to be relised last Sunday.....My pea rents decided that i haven't been abiding by the rules and told me
I need to leave...




now what?

Navy?
move to Taiwan and get a job teaching English?


I spent a good half hour holding my dads gun.

My head is so fucked up right now.

I want to die
but i want to live
i'm scared

this has been the worst weekend of all time....FML and everything else, I try and I get called lazy for it . I tell the truth and get called a lie for it. I work so freaking hard.....and everything I've ever done the meaning and hope I get from it gets ripped from me as soon as I start to feel better...I hate myself...why can't I just be a good little robot.

Happy New YEAR!

Well it's a new year a fresh start and I have a couple of stories to tell
but first my new years resolutions

Start school
Get out more
work on my art more

Any way my Birthday passed so here's how it went

My mom and dad took me for breakfast. And lately my dad has been trying to get me a pair of boots but I know what I want, and my dad doesn't like them so he keeps taking me to stores and stuff and today he took me to the store again after I told him not too...the day before he tried to bribe me by saying that if i got a pair of boots we could eat sushi. Of course I said no because I'm not a fucking sell out. Don't ask me what I want and then tell me that 'oh I don't like those get this instead'. I was so pissed walking up and down the rows of shoes I didn't want. I did happen to see a pair that interested me but when I asked my mother to help me find them she scoffed off. At that point I was irate I was going to fucking hit my dad. I stormed off while i hear my mom and dad point at shoes say

"What about this one?"

2 stores later they finally take me home I ask my dad if he can take me to my grandmothers house in order to see if my Id was there. His response was that he had to go to work.......

BASTARD

Any way

Shinobi came over and we talked about what we could do and finally we decided that no matter what we were going to get sushi. He also throws the Idea of walking around the mall. I'm like sure why not I'm not staying indoors on my birthday

I had my heart set on good sushi so i called some people to see if we could get a ride

NO ONE

Finally I go to my best friends house and see he they could take me, they asked and their parents said yes.

BUT

When it was finally time to go their older sister stole the car

I had a nose bleed when they told me, however luck was with me because

we just took the thief sisters car...


We arrived at the sushi place (after picking up my best friends boyfriend) and sat down discussing our choices.

There were a lot but we at and the girls boyfriend bought 5 BOTTLES OF SAKE XD
we was tips lol

and he was all like "I LOVE SAKE" Any way we went back to my house and got more drinks and played just dance on the wii.

I had a lot of fun
Shinobi also spent the night

The next day Shinobi and I discussed our options for New Years. It was either the club or A friend party but the catch was his friend didn't want any drama because Pirate was going to be there.

I was like what?
I don't start shit with anyone even If they kinda have been a jerk.
So it was settled I was going

We got there and I was almost kinda regretting It
Me and Shinobi were the only single people there

I even walked in on Pirate 2 dong drunken hard core making outness



But I just kinda walked away and immediately reacquainted myself with everyone since I hadn't seen them in such a long time. Played some rock band some other silly games

Made a drink that tasted like day-quill

I had fun to say the least. I was even to get a moment to talk to Pirate when his girl walked off for moment, altho he's still the same...not much of a talker...but I told him to start answering his messages

In a nut shell my year ended the same way it started very bitter-sweet but once it was 12:00.

My new year started off pretty well.


Hell it's better than being on Hollywood bvlrd on roof of a building stoned out of my freaking mind



:D Yep a hell of a lot better

I have a feeling this year will be good.

hey i might even find a guy that loves me for who i am and vise-versa