DAMN it damn it damn it

I'm upset because what I feared would happen did.

I went to the college I'm trying to get into and found out that the letter i had notarized was not the official document that they wanted. Then i tried to change my SS because i screwed it up while applying online. And found out I need more documents

Of course the documents they want I don't have. They got lost somewhere in the shuffle of me moving from place to place.

And of course the cycle of crap begins Not going into it because I'm upset.

Some body just shoot me please

If i manage to get into school I fucking promise to not screw up this time. Just trying to get past this point in enoth for me to work my ass off now

But first things first i'm going to:

get another job
apply for section 8
Get an apartment
And when I can finally get into school
Work my ass off in the arts department


The curse of my birthday is in full swing
happy fucking birthday to me

Dreams and at the moment

First im gonna type up with dream before i forget it.

I had a dream I had long hair I just woke up and it was long like down to my shoulders I was at my mom's house i i showed her how long my hair was and she was surprised for a moment before she started yelling at me about where my head wrap was..... ugh talk about joy kill even in my dreams.


Anyway I've been at my mom's house for the past month because i have no money to get to my intern job and my dad takes me. Right now thou I'm spending quality time with my nephews and my sister in laws new discovery she pregnant with a baby girl 5 months......lol I saw the ultra sounds cute. I was babysiting lol


Hmmmm since my brother is only my half brother would that make her my half sister in law?