Might as well play this while reading it's so touching!! Lyrics and translation at the bottom
Yester day at 5: pm i decided to do my autogentics and meditate. Then i decided that i was tired so i
d take a nap. I woke up and decided to eat lunch only to discover it was 5 in the morning then found out that today was the day that I was going to go to the renn festival so i got ready, danced a little to Super Junior and sang some BoA then i meet up with my best friends (and one of their boyfriend) and we where headed off.
on our way we stopped to get food and i told one of the twins how funny things that are painfully obvious are. also came up with funny t-shirt ideas like 'I'M VEGAN I DON'T WANT YOUR KFC' silly stuff like that. And of course on our way we got lost I don't know why they went the way they did but oh well.
We finally get there and its raining one of the twins kindly payed for my ticket in exchange for a painting of G-Dragon i'm going to do for her and we where in! It was nice i wish i had the money to dress up but oh well....one of the twins bought a vest and we walked out because it was raining. Me and one of the twins ( i paired up with the one with out the boy friend) went to warm up with Her cousin and the the cousin's friends I remembered why i disliked her because she so pretty and nice looking but shes and idiot and her friends are kinda jerks at times. What ever we tried to get back in to a void the awkward situation but to no avail we had to have our hands stamped so sadly we left and went to the mall where the evening begin to turn down hill for me.
I was upset and not for any good reason i was just thinking to much again. about death and the unknown after life and trying to cheer up started thinking about my future but that turned into thinking about the future and the unknown and how things some times don't go the way we plan and how they never go the way you want. then i tried thinking about what was happening at the mall and all i saw was a lot of things i couldn't buy and a lot of Asians that where not Pirate (my ex) and i remembered how even when i'm around friends i'm still lonely. I assumed this was a bout of depression and decided to play DDR it cheered me up till we had to leave. Where we had to wait for the boyfriend to smoke a blunt before we left (made me upset because the twins were complaining of me smelling like cigarettes)
Finally when i was dropped off i commenced to smoking a cigarette and realized what i really wanted was some alcohol don't know if that's a bad sign or not......i still want both but before i could sit in my sadness any longer my dad walked in and whisked me away to my aunts b day party ( I didn't even know it was their birthday If your reading this HAPPY BIRTHDAY!) they had a karaoke machine and i decided to sing to get over my fear of speaking in public you have to start somewhere right? it was okay and fun my little brother was really the only downside. but it was nice and a guy asked me about my interest in Asian culture and i was too happy to obliged I had fun and i feel a little better gonna go put my self to bed now...
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